The week has been a tough one,seriously,and horribly tough. (a little exaggeration on the 'horribly'). And I realized that if I've got a fatal flaw like all the demigods of Rick Riordan, it's my, obviously, emotion (yeah,that's in fact very human).
After a short talk (which,ugh,I cannot elaborate) tears just burst out of my eyes,and the first person to see me crying that day (the same person who insisted that I have that talk) sent me a message, "Pssst! Wag ka ngang umiyak.. ano ba to". And all I could say was, "Sorry naman,iyakin talaga ako."
And then the person to whom I cried it all out, laughed at me at the height of my emotion,leaving me saying,"You're such a true friend, you're laughing while I'm crying!". And I meant it.
The next few nights were still my "crying moments" and as I tried to console and counsel myself (Yeah,I actually do that sometimes), I got to remind myself that whatever extreme emotion I feel, I cry - happiness, sadness, fear, anger, irritation, excitement...ugh...name it. Sometimes, a simple situation/ scene/event/thing that triggers or provoke the emotion works. But sometimes it has to be extreme,like the I'm-so-touched happiness, or the I'm-so-depressed sadness, or the grrrr-I-want-to-throw-anything-and-shout-at-anyone anger, like that. The thing is, I easily cry.
And as much as I want to stop the tears from flowing, the emotion is just difficult to fight. And no matter how hard I try,breathing in and out just doesn't do the trick. Tears are unstoppable.
